Spoonstar in the making

Hi Fiona!

How would you like to be friend with a hawt hawt guy like me?

<b>i’m like,ok?*muka blur n sikda emotion*</b>

Quit chasing after one end.
Mazes,cantek.Confusions,tidak.
To learn to swim or to operate a cancer patient?Choose. Swim,easier. Cancer? Too technical. Later.More time,give me.Give you.
A pink ribbon or a change in mindset?

Cheers

Kalau aku menang duit RMber juta juta,aku memang akan kasi dgn charity lah. Fie gives back katakan. Pay my tithes and settle ALL my debts. Yerrr.. muda muda dah berhutang. Hebat. You know what I mean lah. Bayar pitipitipu n such.
Blahh.. Let me get some inspiration first. Be right back!

Melancholy? Nausea? I dont know which genre this posting falls under. I’m just super tired and feeling totally fucked up. Something is obviously succeeding in pulling me deeper into depression. I’m feeling lost. Back to my old best buddy. Yeah, that’s how bad things are. I’m trying to put on the usual smile people know me for. Sad, I know.
Who do I turn to when I want to say I’ve had enough? No one. Instead, it’s a vice versa situation. Feeling fucked up and tired. Fucked up! The last thing I need now is some bitch trying to act all that in front of me. So, don’t push it. I fucking mean it.
Typical typical abhoring situation. It’s sickening and inevitable.
I just want to get high now and get away. I’m sick of the same all things. Seriously sick.
If you think you know me well, think again. Think hard. Question everything that I do at this point of time. What I am now is not naiveness. Come on. Look at me. Naive and I do not blend well in a sentence. It’s seriously disputable.
Someone,slap me now. Slap me hard because I have the feeling that the old Fie is trying to make a comeback. Oh shit. What character have I being playing for the past 7 semesters? It’s real. Just not entirely me. I miss me.

So yeah, the farewell gathering was fun. With the addition of Bryan and the gang,mmg gila.. Not surprising. Anyway, Mdm Diane is leaving soon for Aussie. Wishing her a well beginning. Sad,as what Chelsea said in one of her speech "No one will be there to support us like Mdm Diane would have"
Managed to bully Miss Liew to sing in front of the crowd.. Success! Haha.. It’s a great thing to see Ms Liew and Ms Constance showing their full support for the function. The rest? Well, they’re probably very tied up with work or whatever. Work or no work, what matters is the thought.
Neway, times like this remind me of how painful a goodbye can be. Be it goodbye forever, or goodbye see you tomorrow. Whichever statement, both is requires fullstop. Time is essential as we can’t turn back to whenever we want to. As I’m typing this, time is also surpassing me. Even as I hit the backspace button, it does not turn back the hand of time.
See, I don’t know where I’m actually heading but what I’m trying to stress on is we shouldnt just watch as things go by. We must embrace it. Few years from now, definitely we will do some flashback and some might put a smile or a smirk on your face, seldom a frown. It is probably because we want to remember the good times instead of otherwise. Even sometimes I thought to myself, how fun it used to be back in school. Some are bad memories but MOST of it arent. Put aside the bad ones, learn from it. Frame inside our heart the good ones and dont forget it.
Many ’sighs’ will not bring back any of it. Your first kiss,your first flirt,your first ABC,your first boy talk,your first fantasy, your first friend. Some of it you might not remember anymore but the first point is all it takes for you to plunge yourself furher..
Every experience teaches and tonight’s farewell with Mdm Diane is a definte eye opener.. As we sang the kau ilhamku song for her, it crossed my mind for awhile of how things are going to be like in few years to come.. I dont want to know. I just want to live in my ‘NOW’.
I want to feel like I’ve reached the end.evry single day… I just cant wait to grad n get the hell out of here.Vacation Baby!!!!!

We dont want any of your money. Semua arahan org atasan. OK?? Zip it.

It’s that moment again.
*Emo alarm*
One minute I’m fine and just a matter of seconds,the moodswings take place. Damnit. I hate PMS. I tend to remember all the facts in the world that triggers me to be in bad mood. So here I am feeling trashy so don’t be offended with whatever things that I’m going to say. Just don’t say I didn’t warn you.
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The message above is potentially for all of you! If you think it’s for everyone, go back to primary school. I clearly mentioned potentially all of you. POTENTIALLY.
Don’t expect me to write all the smart things. fuck!

Had a pretty rough few days. I’m still worn out from my brother’s wedding. And I have difficulties catching up in class. Why do I feel so sick? I’m trying to ignore all that and focus on the important things. The question is, what are the important things? I just recovered from the bloody cold. Sneezes now and then. Gross.
I’m addicted to Bobby Valentino - Anonymous. Darn.. Luckily it’s a healthy addiction. So, no worries aite.
Frankly,unlike others,I don’t find this semester to be different. After all,we’ve been through short sems before. So,what’s the different? I guess the only killer subject is commercial law. Seksyen 26 says consideration need not of promisee. wtf? hahaha.. I find advertising communication very interesting and it has deepen my passion to work behind the camera(in front of the camera is out of the question as i dont think i have the package)haha.The only major issue is I totally suck in designing and is not physically able to draw nicely.haha.. I’m only good with stickman. So,yeah.. Such a spoiler..
Economics? argghh.. I thought I’ve left it behind when SPM ended.. I guess not..
Hrmm.. So yeah.. I’m in the mood to virtually trashtalk. So here goes.. I need a new pair of jeans. Damn it. Money,where art thou? Why is it that we can’t see the importance of certain things when we can literally grab it? Why wait til it’s out of our sight? I guess I’m referring to the blockbuster sales in midvalley the other day. I took it for granted. Sigh. Now the price is back to the normal rate and all I can do is blog about it. Blah! Damn you temptations!

Heard we’re getting a new advisor for the council. I hope with the new principal and the new advisor, everything starts fresh. You think? If you know what’s been happening you will defintely agree that we need a new advisor. We DO NOT need someone who calls us failure and never even showed up for any meeting. When the council found a spotlight in the newspaper, got furious and highlight on our stoopid flaw.
Weird huh?
Yay!!!! New advisor,we will make u proud! huhu..muax!

Today’s paper is super freakin hard!!!!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh… For the first time in my life I stayed in the exam hall for almost 2 hours! Walaueh.. Super super hard. It was as if I’ve never even heard some of the terms before in the lecture. Could it be the case of lack of attention in class? I object! haha.. I’m a very good girl and I rarely missed my class unless for a super emergency reason. Get it?
Unlike the college’s management, I am super honest ok. haha.. Cool comparison huh? Dei,it’s a free country ok. Whatever it is, it’s not the main issue. Today is super hot and and my body is super tired. Lack of snoozes and lack of stamina. I need a beach trip therapy.. I can’t wait for my super final paper which is this wednesday. During the semester break,I am soooooooooo going to get a super retail therapy and get  a super makeover! haha..sounds like a super spoil dumb blonde statement eih? It’s a reality, no one can break girls and shopping apart. Disagree? Go away,this is not the place for you if that’s the case.
Neways,it’s Mother’s Day today and I would like to take this opportunity to wish my mummy Happy Mama’s Day! May God bless her and I wish her every beautiful flows in life. She deserves all the wonderful things in life. =)
Hey,my money is on Mila for AF.I just love her! That girl can sing man. I’m not a big fan of the show but I did managed to catch a few cuts of the concerts. I really hope she wins this season. Super gila la kalau aswad menang!
Apa apa pun, never buy mee maggi slurrpp with MAWI on it. Boikot!haha.. Nah..Not only that it tastes terrible,it smells like maggie in a cup.BASICALLY,the same product with different presentation and and slightly higher price! Huh.. Bijak Bijak.. Mee sedap still rox. Wow.. my body is filled up with all these unhealthy fastfood.! What’s going to happen to me in few years time if I keep this trend going? Ok,I’ll try to put a stop to it. My eye is defintely on secret recipe,it’s a must for me to pay that outlet a visit after my exam.PERSOALAN,is the cheesecake as super heavenly as it was?? Stay tune to find out..