Spoonstar in the making

Don’t lie and say that it’s OK.
It’s alright here, there’s nothing more to say.
So I’m running away.
I’m leaving this place.
Yeah, I’m running away.
I’m running away.

Don’t tell me, I don’t want to play.
It’s too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won’t stay.
So I’m running away.
I’m leaving this place.
Yeah, I’m running away.
I’m running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I’m leaving
Yeah I’m leaving today.
And I, I’ll never let you find me.
I’m leaving you behind with the past
No, I won’t look back.
And I don’t want to hear your reasons.
Don’t want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can’t stay
I, I’m moving on from this place
I’m leaving and I won’t quit running away.

I’m running away.
I’m leaving this place.
Yeah, I’m running away.
I’m running away..

Away from you.

I wanted to stay but you made me drift further. Things are getting complicated. Am I going to sound like an innocent youth if I say "I dont want anything to happen to our friendship.."? Can just fuck that off. It’s only a feeling. Yeah whatever.. I just need to let this out people. I thought  about it and I’ve decided not to care about it anymore. What is the point of trying to convince me something that you’re not even convinced of. One word. PATHETIC.
So what if I sound like an online bitch. I AM virtually bitching about it. I was wrong about you. Dont blame me for indirectly giving you hope. BLAME YOURSELF FOR THINKING YOU DESERVE THAT HOPE. It’s sad lah…come on.. Cant you handle these situation like an adult?
ADULT ADULT ADULT ADULT ADULT ADULT.
Fuck sweet talks, fuck hopeless flirts. Confront me when you are BIG enough to do so. I dont wanna see you as you are/were. Mana mana. JUST DONT EXPECT ME TO PLAY ALONG WITH THIS AMATEUR BATTLE. I’m tired of it. Just so you know, despite my fresh age, I HAVE BEEN THROUGH A LOT. SHOW ME SOMETHING NEW, PLEASE. TQ.

R.I.P TOTO… =(