Spoonstar in the making

There are times a girl would feel terribly helpless. The ones who disagree to this statement are those living in denial and trying to convince the world who they are ideally.
We can be helpless in many ways. It’s either we run out of words when things don’t go our way. Or perhaps everything seems too much at a time. Often we tell ourselves how things will be better in the morning. Guess what,sometimes it doesn’t turn out to be okay. It’s okay,you know. When such things happen, let it be. Experiences teach us a truely valuable lesson.
However, some may feel helpless in a sense that they thought they know how to handle the situation when what’s happening is really beyond anyone’s control. For example a girl might try hard to help the girlfriend who’s feeling down due to a heartache or anything girlish. Then,turns out this friends only exists or comes around when she needs someone to talk to. My advice, cross this fella of ur bff list.
A total waste of time.
Also there are times we feel helpless when we miss someone we love and the only way to interact with them is through the sms or phonecalls. It’s just one of the things we have to go through bah.. It’s normal..
I don’t know how we can go on living thinking we are so different than the other girls when actually that is the one thing that we have in common. Think others don’t go through what YOU go through? Think again sweetheart..
It’s useless trying to convince others that you’re the only one with issues. I’m trying to share all this in the best girlish way I can be. Normally,it’s curses and heartless points of views. Today,i guess i just want to be a Girl.. =)
It’s ok to feel helpless. That is the reason why God create others around you. However, please don’t take them for granted. Don’t just come to them when you need them. That’s sellfish and honestly,the reason why I’m blogging on this is because I’m sick of sellfish people. we all have a life to lead and a journey to complete. Think again when you feel like causing a huge drama. Think hard.

Darn, I often begin my speeches with curses. Just so you know, i don’t mean it in a negative manner. That’s just me. haha.. Damnit, it’s been ages since I’ve updated my blogs. My brain is pretty rusty due to the weather and the scenarios of life. Excuses,Excuses..
So,what’s been happening? Let’s pick up right where I left off.. Question,where?

                  Ok,I guess I’ll just do some recap for 2006.

A pretty productive year I must say.Gotten pretty serious with my assignments til the extend it brought tears to my eyes. The mixtures of struggling with financials and emotions and even health are pretty acidic. There was a point where it seemed too much. I was accused by some ‘ex-lecturer’ saying that I got her fired. Never did she know she was being evaluated and the results were based on the students’ valid allegations. I mean,let’s be logical here. Would the boss fire her because I told them to? Come’on.. Be real..
A pretty tough situation but it’s something I have to bypass regardless of what any party has to say. If I had to be the villain character,so be it. I’m just really thankful for the new lecturer taking over her place. Mr Tay is a wonderful man. The perfect lecturer for the shortcoming we’re facing. I’m really glad the new students didn’t have to face that horrible person anymore. Next!

Ok,last year’s christmas was painful! I drank too much that when I woke up the next day I barely remember what happened. The details slowly crossed my mind in the morning and the terrible barf stains on my jeans made it vividly clear that I was going through a hangover. haha.. I kept a sceptical expression. I was like, come on.. I didnt drink THAT much..haha.. Silly me.. Luckily my boyfriend wasnt there to see me in that condition or I would’ve gotten a really really ’something major’ from him.. Sorry Baby..It’s just an occasionally thingy. *winks*

Olrite, met some new lovely friends and I still struggle to come up with a resolution for 2007. I guess I’ll just play the Go with the flow game huh.. In the future, i just want to go all out and do my thing! haha.. needless for the last sentence. I meant to say, I still havent forgotten my old friends but the new ones taught me a lot and I’m expressing my feelings of gratitude via the internet. *winks* I hope the best in life showers everybody I know. I’m a changed person I supposed. What’s the point of grudges and hatred? A waste of time..

cheers..