Spoonstar in the making

Awesome..It’s almost the end of the year..haa…It’s the most happiest moment for me..haha…The Exclusive Club 90’s gonna be open..woohhoo!!The manager?My Bro and I..ahakz..ok,i’ll QUIT the bimboness..ahakz..

aite,the year 2005…

Loadz of stuffs had happened..met loadz of new ppl in my life..A truly money can’t buy experienceS.Got into college life this year,currently in my 2nd Sem..Truly inspired to write a book entitled, "2005,Through the eyes of Fie.."haha..had learned that in other to help ourself,you have to help others..like my bro says to me constantly, ‘help me to help you..’ i did learned to stop being childish..but i’m still manja sorry to say..haha.. I have learned so many things through mistakes but that doesn’t mean that i’ve known the WORLD yet..No one does.. In relationship,i’ve learned that at my age,thinking of the word commitment is totally stupid..i Know that..lamak dah..it’s just that i’ve come to realise that it’s a waste of time if u r with someone who’s not even worth a second of your time..Checked!see?i’m emphasizing the whole sentence in different ways..haha..However,if you fell seriously in love,when you break up,don’t turn to sorrow..Sincere advice from me..u’ll find someone better..someone who will not treat you like a trophy..Someone who’s mature..someone who doesn’t lie..someone who doesn’t ask for sympathy…simply,Someone good..Trust me..just don’t take everyone around you for granted..you’ll never know when anyone’s time will expire..i might be gone next week..i don’t know..No one does..except HIM..my point is,if someone has a crush on you,say thank you..learn to appreciate them..oh ya,i would like to take this opportunity to say sorry to ALL those i’ve hurt or have not hurt yet..ahakz..i’m just a human am i not?My point is,again,there’s no use for you to talk shit about me..it’ll only make me more popular..haha..u who have always wanted to be popular pulak will not get the limelight..so,save everyone some trouble and just chill out..don’t hate me cause i fall into the category "dont hate me cause I’m Beautiful" i mean,that is SOOOOOO yesterday..grow up..move on.. i’m soo tired of all that.. i’m a nice person..no point for u to give me that some kind of look..in the end,who’s the loser?YOU Jugak kan..hahaha..lawak na juak eh..udah gik..suka na dunia tok nyuruh aku tetak..ok,hrrmm..first sem..didnt do quite well..luckily i didnt fail any of the ’simple’ subjects..still,i wish i’ve tried harder for Mdm Suwiti’s subject..Now now,i’ll try to do better for the second semester..hrrmm..friendship?well,all of my old beautiful frens still remember me and missing me..that’s a good thing..ahakz..I MISS YOU PPL!! my new frens?they are all awesome..it’s a nice feeling when you are surrounded by people who love you and the other way round..however,it hurts soooo badd when miscommunication happens..backstabbing,lies,hypocrites,gossips and all that shittoes..but hei!that’s part of the wonderful thing called Life..have to have all those in order to learn that you can never trust anyone in this world..Am I not Right?hehe..hrrmm..what else..My 18th year being alive has been sweet and motivating so far..despite its ups and downs..biasa la tue..ok,the tv is quite distracting..what’s showing?hrrmm..cheh,some chinese soap opera..apa jak la mak aku ya..nangga cerita cam ya..i guess i’ll stop here for now..will continue soon..so ppl,live life to the fullest and do not let love take over your mind..feel with your heart but let the brain do the loving..ahakz!

Merry Xmas!!

xoxo,

biatch

Is YOU!!!

xoxo,

biatch

A good friend of mine told me that the opposite of love is not hate- it’s indifference. I couldn’t agree more. A torn person who does not murmur a word is much more effective than one who spews venom. If you think about it, we have been taught this through various childhood lessons such as how to deal with a bully. The best way to stand up to a bully was to ignore him/her. Bullies were bullies because they needed attention and only when that was denied to them, is when they were defeated. Humans want so desperately to be loved that we often confuse love with attention. Is it possible for someone to love you and not shower you with attention? Likewise, is it also possible for someone to shower you with attention and actually not give a shit about you? Man’s innate curiosity to know the meaning of life is, in my opinion, is really just an excuse to find out who loves you. The self-righteous people are the most love starved and they feed themselves with theories and philosophies to substitute the lack of love in their lives. In this case, the self-righteous confuses love with “understanding”. Which leads me to ask, is love an all or nothing thing? Is it relative? Do we all have our own definitions of love- and if that is the case, it should be of no surprise that we are so often disappointed in matters of the heart. I give love endlessly. My love is like a bleeding wound with no platelets- that will keep going and going until I die. Romantic? Maybe. Stupid? More likely. But honest nonetheless. I wish I could be indifferent. I don’t know how.

woohoo…am in the mood for Christmas..gago,sukati aku lah!hrrmm…what do i wish for this year?Loadz!haha..not that i believe in Santa anyway..am too old for that..however,i just want to emphasize on the fact that i’ve been a good girl this year..hehe..so,please make my WISHES come true..ahakz..here’s my wishlist : a)score 3.4 n above for the upcoming final exam..b)someone to call my own..(ahakz)c)a song specially composed for me..d)a trip to the beautiful beach..miss u beach!!!hrrmm…and loadza loadza present!!!hehehe..