A Letter To You
I shall remain this way. Cold and heartless. You are the one who taught me how. I can’t talk eye to eye to you anymore and you say the problem is me. I’ve not done anything wrong but you keep saying I have. Ma,Pa, I’m sorry I’m not perfect. No one is.. However, if you wish to drive things the way it is now, I’ll surrender and the way it is shall it be. Please don’t blame it on me because it is YOU who started all this fire of hatred in me. Now now, don’t go lecturing me about how I’ve changed from a loving girl to who I am now.. Because the answer’s simply in YOU. Please don’t go twisting things around just because you feel like it. Just because you feel like you are right all the time. Just because..Sometimes I wish real hard for you to listen to me at least ONCE. Is that too much to ask for? It seems to me, the more I wish for it, the farther it seems from reality. How long should I wait for the Good Lord to make things better? How I’m hoping for another hope to flickers any moment from now.. Tick tock tick tock.. It’s still the same.. Daddy, hold me.. Oh wait,you’re not here. Mama, talk to me.. Sigh, i forgot you will not listen because there’s always going to be accusations in each of our conversation. Do not get me wrong, It’s not that I do not understand your situation.. I do.. I mean, I’ve tried.. TOO many times.. Should I keep trying, I keep asking. Who’s going to answer that for me? A confession I wish to jot down.. I love both of you but I can’t lead your life because I have a life on my own. Thank you for bringing me to this world. You’ve done a brilliant job as parents. Look at me Daddy, look at me Mama.. Do you still want to force me do things I do not want to do? It’s like you’re holding yourself back from reality. Perhaps you wish to see me do the things you’ve always wanted to do.. but Ma,Dad, don’t destroy my dreams and beliefs just because you are not close to yours. I could not ask for more now because I no longer believe in what I believed in once. I’ve shed so many tears just to defend myself until I no longer find tears as a way for me to express my sadness. Instead, they’re the only method for me to end the day. I cry myself to sleep almost every night. And the sad part is YOU don’t know about it. A simple message I wish to deliver to you. Very simple, I just want to tell you I just want to talk to you.. Tell you I’m not perfect.. I guess, this is just another one of my letters that’s not going to reach you….
-ur Princess-
